Who are YOU?

Do you often find yourself questioning who you are?

A question I have for you all is: Do you know who you are?

If I am being honest, I always find myself questioning who I am – as a person, a student, a daughter, a colleague, a partner, a sister, a cousin, a niece, a granddaughter and a friend etc. And truth be told, as much as I would come up with different answers, I am not always confident with them. Why? Because I have not yet discovered myself. And I have learnt that it is okay. We are ever-evolving, growing, learning, developing and changing. Who we were yesterday is not who we are today and who we are today will not be who we will be tomorrow and in the years to come.
And the same goes for life too. Life will not always be the same. Yesterday was a different day. Today is a new day and tomorrow will also be another new and different day with different encounters and a different vibe. We should always expect changes to occur because change is inevitable.

Some may argue that life teaches you. Some may argue that experiences teach you. Some may argue that people teach you. Irrespective of that, what matters is that through each and every encounter you have, you have gained wisdom and understanding. You have gained a better insight into what you encountered and as a result, you discovered a little piece of yourself, that perhaps, you didn’t even know existed.

I have battled with my own personal identity for years. How comes? I always went by what people said. At a point in my life, I allowed people to define who I was and make all the decisions in my life. And I guess it varied from each situation because as a child, you don’t really have that much flexibility. But the danger I discovered in that was that I wasn’t given the freedom, which as a consequence, I started internalising all the foul, hurtful and untrue things that were said to and about me. I felt before all of these issues, that I knew myself from a young age – confident, outgoing, expressive, honest, friendly, bubbly, smart etc. But when you fall into the hands of malicious people, they try to distort and destroy that because they see a light in you that they desperately want to dim because it is too blinding. And when you don’t have a strong corner to lean on. you crumble and slowly start to dwindle away.

Now in my adulthood, I am still struggling to let go but I am slowly finding my feet and (re)discovering little pieces of me, whilst taking back some chunks of myself that people selfishly snatched away from me growing up. I have found that I have carried a lot of my childhood trauma into my adulthood and cared about people and their unwanted two cents more than I should, which has left me feeling confused, insecure, conflicted, frustrated, bitter, hurt, angry and sad.
I say all of this now because once I reached a breaking point, I became more aware of some of the subconscious issues I was dealing with unbeckoned to me.

As I am journeying through healing, I decided that I was going to work on my spiritual growth and healing. And through my spiritual growth and healing, I have discovered myself more in Christ.

God says I am a new person in Jesus Christ. Through his salvation, we gain a whole new life and identity: “This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!” ( 2 Corinthians 5:17, NLT; see also Ephesians 4:24 ).
I am transforming into the new person I have found and will be walking in my purpose as I continue to grow.

“I am a friend of Jesus”.

Jesus does not separate me from him. He has made me his friend because he loves me and because he has shared gems that his father shared with him, with me, so that I may know and walk in the truth.
“I no longer call you slaves, because the slave does not understand what his master is doing. But I have called you friends because I have revealed to you everything I heard from my Father” (John 15:15).

“In Christ Jesus, I have wisdom, righteousness, sanctification, and redemption”.

Through Jesus, I have gained knowledge and spiritual awareness of who he is and because of that, I have found who I am.
“He is the reason you have a relationship with Christ Jesus, who became for us wisdom from God, and righteousness and sanctification and redemption” (1 Corinthians 1:30).

****This post isn’t to make anyone uncomfortable based on not having a spiritual and religious background. This is what I have turned to and discovered, which is personal to me and what has been keeping me going.
Some of you may or may not have a religious belief and there is no judgement for that. As long as you are happy and doing things that help you cope or better manage situations that work best for you and that make you feel comfortable, then do you!****

What I am learning about myself is that:
– I AM INSPIRATIONAL
– I AM COURAGEOUS
– I AM BEAUTIFUL
– I AM HARDWORKING
– I AM INTELLIGENT
– I AM IRREPLACEABLE
– I AM UNIQUE AND SPECIAL
– I AM FUNNY
– I AM FRIENDLY AND BUBBLY
– I AM WISE
– I AM CREATIVE
– I AM STRONG
– I AM GREAT AND DESTINED FOR GREATNESS
– I AM MULTITALENTED
And many more things!

The million-dollar question I have for you is:
Who are YOU?

And if you don’t know, start searching!

Until next time,
SC xo